Nervous As All Get Out? Perhaps A Little.

I recently have been faced with some "health issues". I have had two Sonograms within the last month. The results were that I have a par ovarian cyst on my left side. It is benign, THANK GOD. But, being it not a normal ovarian cyst but a par ovarian, it more than likely will not go away. I will have to have Laparoscopy to have it removed. The thought of surgery makes be a little nervous. But, I have been told that it is a day surgery. The procedure itself should only take about an hour or so. This is a lot of information that I have had to process in my brain over the last six days. This morning I opened up my email and read the following scriptures that a friend sent me. “He said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's. ... Ye shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still, and see the salvation of the LORD with you, O Judah and Jerusalem: fear not, nor be dismayed; to morrow go out against them: for the LORD will be with you.” (2 Chronicles 20:15,17). Knowing that God is the same yesterday, today and forever, I know that what He promised in the Old Testament is good enough for me today. Reading these verses this morning reminded me again...this battle I am faced with belongs to the Lord. He knows the way that I take. So, I must set myself, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord in my situation. I must come face to face with my fears and tell them to go back to were they came from, in JESUS name. The Hebrew translation for salvation is salvation, deliverance, prosperity and victory. All this is mine when I stand still and allow His salvation to become visible in my circumstance. Another scripture that comes to mind is Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God". I need to relax...push fear out of my mind...and perceive and see that He is the God with whom ALL things are possible!

The subject of fear reminds me of something else. Have you ever had a dream and knew that it had some spiritual significance? I have. A couple of weeks ago, I awoke from a dream that seemed really disturbing at first. But I figured out what it meant. But as I was typing this entry in my blog, I realized that God was preparing me for this moment in time. Here is my dream: "In my dream, I was in my home I was raised in as a child. I began to feel like something potentially dangerous was nearby. I turned around and saw a black panther eyeing me. I knew I had to get him out of my home. Out of no where, I grabbed a tiger by the neck and opened the back door of the house and threw it out...knowing in my mind that the black panther would go after it. Sure enough, the black panther darted out the back door and devoured the tiger instantly. I shut that back door and felt peace." I awoke confused at first but I later realized that the tiger symbolized my fears. The black panther symbolized satan. I knew that in order to feel peace and safety, I needed to throw my fears and feed them back to the devil where they belong. I have had a dream with a black panther in it before, which I will save that one for another post, but I will say that dream was interpreted that God would fight my battles for me, I can not fight them alone.

So, yes I am nervous about the upcoming surgery, but I need to remind myself that the Lord is fighting this battle for me. And, as long as I am in HIS hands, I am safe!